the lammergeier
by mara klein
“In Tantric Chöd practice, the practitioner, motivated by compassion, plays the kangling as a gesture of fearlessness, to summon hungry spirits and demons so that their hunger may be satisfied and their sufferings thereby relieved.”
whine of wind through human bone
the drone of the kangling rises
like the stench of sulphur springs
curling from naked rock
steaming in the air
fear sucks fog from your mouth
it seeps into stone, swelling,
cracking the ribcage of the mountains
letting them breathe
the vulture glides on the inhalation of the world,
mineral blood dripping from its wingtips
how can a creature rust if it never lies still?
a life without sacrifice is lonely
energy in stasis, body heat breeding bacteria
your ego is cold and dense; cough it up
bile burns away rot;
roll in it.
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the smell of iron settles in stale air
so seek your relief until the vultures come
take my hand, hollow me out,
bring the sky to the core of me
I will become the wind skimming over the water
rippling through white fabric
carrying the smell of smoke and the sound of voices
I will become the warmth rising from the hot springs
and the mud staining the lammergeier’s wings
I will become the violent green rush of a river
and the tears falling down a child’s face
bone-breakers, sky-dancers,
lift me from the earth;
bury me in the clouds
and I will fall back down as rain.